Her Name Is April Rose

So let me tell yall what happened to me.. Alright, remember when I spoke about Yesterday? Yeah, he caught me off guard, but this one… smh. Let’s call him LI. People pick the strangest times to pop back into my life. I swear, I can’t just be happy and have a break from the nonsense for more than a week or two.

You see.. Me and Yesterday were always off and on. And when we were ‘off’, me and LI were ‘on’. I met LI in 06. Young and dumb, I cared about him.. a lot, but the feelings weren’t mutual. Well, they didn’t seem to be reciprocated to me at least. I kept him around, though. He gave me what I needed at the time: attention, affection, humor, good sex, etc. Really.. I wanted to be his, but I knew that probably wasn’t going to happen.

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No Cudi. This is me.. my life thus far.

Well.. ok. I tried to make a soundtrack. It wasn’t as easy as I assumed it was going to be. Go steal one of those MySpace surveys and fill out the answers. Yeah.. that didn’t work.

It’s kind of hard when I’m still here living.. breathing.. changing. See that the thing about movies.. They’re scripted.. Written out to the T. Granted actors and directors make a few artistic tweaks here and there, but for the most part they stick to what was written for them. Therefore, you’re going to be able to make a soundtrack to a film. You know exactly what’s going to happen.. when.. where.. how. (more…)

Took me awhile to listen to Wiz Khalifa’s Burn After Rolling. I shouldn’t have waited so long.

Soundtrack for today [and possibly the rest of the week..]

Don’t leave.. cause you’re my oxygen. Without you I won’t breathe. You’re everything I want.. need. For you I wear my heart on a short sleeve.. I know some things need changing. That takes time.. I need more.. please.

..are the best songs. You don’t have to wonder how it’s gonna end..

No one’s album has spoken to me like Melanie Fiona’s The Bridge in quite a while. This Canadian beauty of Guyanese decent has released something so soulful, unique and refreshing to my ears. Her album is something like what Teedra Moses’ Complex Simplicity was to me in 04: it has a track for every facet of my life. I can listen to The Bridge non-stop without skipping and when it comes to me, that’s a difficult feat. So guess who will be copping her album on Tuesday when it drops in the US? =]

One song that I found myself playing over and over was Sad Songs. Sampling Janet Kay’s 1979, Silly Games, this break up track is somewhat.. upbeat. I found myself over here groovin to this, although maybe I shouldn’t have been considering the actual lyrics behind it.

Loving her.. leaving me.. It’s not the way it’s supposed to be..
But you’ll regret it.. You’ll be upset.. when the next man is loving me..

Got to stop calling them “ex-Girlfriends & Ex-Boyfriends” disown them completely, consider them “Yesterdays” – Greg.

Wise words from a decent man. I haven’t put much thought into my “yesterdays” lately. Didn’t really have to nor want to. Well that was up until.. yesterday. My phone went off. “Hey whats up?” popped up on my screen with a name I wasn’t expecting at all. He’s texting me? Alright.. Nothing much. How have you been?

Chit chat about school & iPhones ensued. Cool. Whatever. I mean I did say I hope we can still be friends, didn’t I? And then he asks, “You wouldn’t wanna talk about what happened between us would you?” -sigh- Lawd.. must we? We can if you want.. (more…)