It may not be what you call perfect, but it's my life..

Aye..

The eff is going on with you? You’ve been on your bi-polar shit lately. You sent him that bitter ass text.. For what? You see he loves you. You’re getting real out of pocket.. for nothing. Truthfully, I think you’ve let that haircut and those heels get to you. Straight bitchin’ and moanin’ over shit. You never used to act like this. Alright.. keep the new look, but let’s start acting like the same girl you were when you had on a hoodie and some Supras.

Really though, why are you stressing things? The good thing about your “relationship” or whatever yall two have going on was that you didn’t fight.. You didn’t get into any huge arguments. Don’t switch it up now. That’s exactly what pushes people away. Calm the eff down and take a breath. He’s the best thing to happen to you in such a long time, hun. Sweartogawd you better hope you ain’t eff this up.

And let’s remember you have other things you have to worry about: Job interviews, transfer applications.. Oh yeah.. graduating. What’s happening between you and him isn’t going to go any further if you don’t concentrate on what’s important. In order to move to the DMV, you must actually get some decent grades and get accepted into school down there, sweetheart. Phi Theta Kappa can get snatched away from you real quick.

Yeah, I know there’s a lot more going on other than your issues with him. There’s a lot of pain in there that you won’t share, but you have to find someone to open up to other than me. Chill with the tough exterior. I know what’s going on in there. Yeah yeah.. everyone comes to you with their problems. No one for you to turn to. I’m tired of that excuse. You know, it might help if you actually TRY telling someone your problems for once. You’re a good friend and for the most part, you’ve surrounded yourself with good people. I’m sure one of them has enough sense to help you with what you’re going through.

Listen, everything is going to be alright in the end, but you need to start taking control of yourself and your life. You know this whole living thing.. shit ain’t guaranteed, love. These days are limited. You shouldn’t spend them stressing out over everything.

Sincerely yours,

Your conscious.

-exhales- That was desperately needed. Thanks for the inspiration, bestie.