Dream killers.
3 Feb
If you listen to your fears, you will die never knowing what a great person you might have been. – Robert H. Schuller
I’ve spent my life making a lot of excuses for myself. I tell you all time and time again about how much of an underachiever I am and these excuses have been my crutch for years. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I keep doing things that hold me back from achieving my dreams. I keep finding ways to justify my actions.
So what does that have to do with this post? Well, in the last couple of months people have been pushing me to follow my dreams and go after what I love: sports. Well, talking and writing about sports that is. I joke around about how I want to be Tony Reali in a couple years.
Then I follow that statement up with how unsure I am of pursuing my degree in journalism. There’s so many people who know much more about sports than me. I’ll be 22 soon and having to start over on a completely different degree is a lot. I still have to finish up my degree in Psychology as well. Is it all really worth it?
Excuses. From the first day I picked up a Spalding basketball.. The first time I ever saw Emmitt Smith run in for a touchdown.. The first game I witnessed Ken Griffey, Jr. hit a home run.. The first time I stole my brother’s Gretzky jersey.. This is what I want. This is what I love… so why am I running away from my dream?
I always say that my biggest fear in life is failure, but yet I find ways to hold myself back. Maybe I’m really afraid of how successful I could potentially be. Or maybe it’s a defense mechanism. What if I don’t reach my goals no matter how hard I try? Then what am I supposed to do?
That’s a lot of what ifs. The fact is if I let my fears of what could or could not happen dictate what I do, I’ll always regret not going after my aspirations. I think it’s finally time to let go of all those fears. No more time for excuses.. I refuse to be my own dream killer.
- April Rose
Change that from sports and you have my life. I may need to move to DC so we can encourage each other from nearby. Let me see about getting my transcript sent…
How many times do I have to tell you that? Just go to grad school out in the DMV. We’ll be set.
Long story about that. school has me down for a Summer ’09 class i didn’t take. say i owe them $500 and they won’t send my transcript until i go through the appeals process.
Finally chasing not a few, but all of your aspirations. I’m proud of ya, April, and I’ll be there every step of the way to make sure you don’t stumble & keep your eyes focused on the prize ahead.
~ G. (oh yeah…. we still ain’t shit tho)
Told you the other day, always and forever lol.
Damn.. Schools are always trying to get you over some bs. I remember Rutgers doing that to me on numerous occasions smh.